Halloween approaches. It is a holiday I know nearly nothing about. On the face of it it seems like a strange thing, for children to dress up and go out and beg for candy. I know it would be a simple task to learn more about Halloween, but the truth is I really don’t give a damn.
I went to a costume party once but I don’t think it was Halloween. It was during a down period in my life. I was working a low-paying temporary job back home in Pueblo. Not what I had expected after graduation, but like now, jobs were scarce, especially for a C average business school graduate. My girlfriend had moved out of town, I was feeling low, and I decided to spend a weekend in Boulder. I always stayed with Gerry Perko when I returned to Boulder. He was the only one of my friends still there, working on his master’s degree in engineering. He probably wasn’t enthusiastic about me visiting uninvited but he was always a gracious host, at least as much as a young single guy could be. I don’t remember if he put sheets on the couch. Probably not.
While I was there I called Sharron Martin. Sharron was that very unusual thing, a friend and a girl but not a girlfriend. My pal Robert Pardun and Sharron had been together for several years but they had broken up. Sharron and I had both grown up on Corona Street, and one hot summer night she had hooked up an extension cord in the house and brought her phonograph out to the porch, and she and Kay Brooks had tried to teach Butch Donnelly and me how to do the bop. I remember huge junebugs smacked against the screendoor and fell in front of it, sometimes on their backs with their legs helplessly flailing in the air, and we kicked them aside so as not to step on them and make a mess. The insects had about as much chance as I did learning how to dance. I was probably fifteen.
Sharron was in her senior year at CU, and when I called she probably sensed my down mood, or maybe I told her what was going on in my life, and she invited me to a costume party she was going to that night, probably hoping to cheer me up. I told her I didn’t have a costume but she said she would figure something out and told me to pick her up later. When I arrived she gave me an old brown vinyl raincoat with a hood, and a piece of rope to tie around the waist, and said I would go as a monk. I told her I wouldn’t go because it was absolutely too lame but she insisted and finally I agreed.
This party was for members of the foreign students organization. I’m not sure how Sharron was involved, although in Boulder, Pueblo may have been considered a foreign country. The party was on campus and was the only party in Boulder I can remember where no liquor was involved, which was not a good thing because a couple of beers would have loosened me up and made me less uncomfortable. I had expected there would be some cute girls but most of the party-goers were dark-skinned guys who certainly had money in whatever country they came from. With my complexion I fit right in. Except for the money part. There were some creative costumes of famous people, and the whole night people kept coming up to me and asking in foreign accents what my costume was. When I would tell them I was wearing a monk’s robe they would say they just thought it was a raincoat. A lot of people would look at this party as a means to meeting new people and learning about foreign countries but I don’t think I did. I just wanted it to be over.
I don’t remember the circumstances, but later I was together with Sharron and a girlfriend and a guy they knew. Maybe I was giving him a ride. He was a blond, good-looking kid and he was drunk. He told us how he liked to hitchhike into Denver and go down to Larimer Street, which was then skid row, and drink with the alcoholics in the cheap bars or share their wine when they had it. He also told how he would go to the area around the State Capitol and get picked up by one of the homosexuals who cruised that part of town. He would let them take him home, then beat them up. At that point in my life I had no understanding of and little sympathy for queers, as we commonly called them then, but what he did seemed like a chickenshit thing to do.
When I was driving Sharron and her girlfriend home I experienced one of those rare times when women talk to each other like they do when a man isn’t around, even though one is. They were discussing someone they knew, and one of them said he was a nice guy, and then they chimed in together, “Just another nice guy,” and laughed. And I knew I fit that category too. Just another nice guy. I have often wondered why girls and women will prefer a guy who drinks, rides a motorcycle and puts them down to a guy who buys them dinner and treats them well.
About a year and-a-half later, when I was dating Jackie and wanted to show her Boulder, one weekend we drove there. She stayed in Sharron’s apartment while I stayed with Sharron’s boyfriend, a slightly older guy who taught at the University and who was renting a cottage in Chautaqua. That was in the spring of 1965. The foothills were lovely with new grass and the the young leaves were that light green they get in the beginning and deer were grazing in the big meadow just below the Flatirons. That was the last time I saw Sharron. After that I lost contact with her, like I did with a lot of other people. I still think of her sometimes.
Jerry Miller